sentimentality

It's not good to make sentimental journeys. You see the differences instead of the sameness.

- Mary Astor

After watching a watered-down version of Sweeney Todd(with the help of sharon, I managed to reduce it from an M18 show to a PG one,oops!), it put me into a sentimental mood. And today when I wanted to search for a quote to describe my feelings, I found this one from Mary Astor that captures exactly what I felt.

But I want to kind of tweak it a little. It's okay to make sentimental journeys, but it's not good to make the journeys permanent ones.

It hit again once again that all of us are very different people, with actually little chance of fully comprehending one another. We think differently, we act differently, we speak differently most of the times..I mean hello!Our words at times don't even match what we really want to say, and many times, our words and actions have a meaning behind them, or maybe many many other meanings behind them!Like what hoca said before, when he says he likes pineapples, he could be displacing his actual liking for avacados, which could actually be another displacement for his innate want to be a fruit juice seller, which could in turn actually be another displacement for another thing...it goes on. We will never really know what he really means to say, and he may never even know what he means to say really himself!

okay, so maybe I kind of twisted his words a bit..cause I can't remember all of his words except the pineapples part..haha. the rest is made up.

anyway, the main point is that we say we understand, but frankly, we only do understand others to maybe 20%? the rest are all based on assumptions and filling in of the blanks, and thinking we understand. hmmm.

okay, so I take back the times when I say "I understand", cause I think I do understand, but not the way you want me to. I understand it in my own way, not yours. so I'm sorry folks.

ermm. I kinda lost track of what I wanted to say. before recollecting, I just want to wish all of you a most blessed and fun-filled chinese new year ahead! delight yourselves this season with spending time with your family and friends, and enjoy the food and the red packets!

chinese new year eve eve was splendid for me. got to spend time with two of my most special people. some things could have been better(like the salmon sashimi..), some parts of conversation could have been better(like complimenting on my nice hair could be a really nice change=)haha, I'm kidding on this one, I'm adjusting to the ah lian thing really well..just don't divulge it to my cell mates!or i'm done for.my reputation will be ruined!)..but as usual, all those things don't really matter. what mattered was that we spent time together. and carol called too=) that was really nice!haha, got to wish her a good new year too.

sometimes I feel really inadequate. like there's so many things I have to do, yet I keep putting them off..like I know the person I ought to be, yet I am just too unwilling and ill-disciplined to change..I get a little depressed from time to time. even when I know just a talk with my heavenly father will change things and make me feel better, even though I know He will welcome me back with open arms, but I just feel so ashamed to talk to Him.

and yet I always know I'll end up talking to Him. because ultimately I know He loves me and He will forgive me..there is no record of wrongs with Him. and I know He will help me..okay.shall end off here to go talk to my heavenly father.

two last quotes for the day,

I'm a romantic; a sentimental person thinks things will last, a romantic person hopes against hope that they won't.
F. Scott Fitzgerald

Everything gets to me. I'm very sentimental.
Cornelia Funke