another journey with You~

I really feel like blogging, but whenever I think of coming here to type, I feela little bored. haha, it must be that I feel like I'm typing out notes rather than sharing my thoughts. I have been making notes for the 208 exam, and surprisely, it actually felt fun coming up with ideas and points. I really like the short films by Jacen Tan. I felt very happy watching and analysing the films.

and honestly, though I am glad we're only left with one paper left, I am strangely missing the feel of exams already. It's like I no longer mind taking exams. and exams are really quite fun. though I get bored writing sometimes, and at times, I have to struggle so badly to have something to put on paper, I have never once regretted taking some time off writing my essays to just take in the scene around me in the exam hall. I've probably said it before about how the things that I see in exams halls are really so amusing and interesting. haha;)

and so while people are scribbling madly away, I will just be massaging my hands lightly and glancing around the room, and observing how different people write their papers differently. this time around, the exams feel really distant from me, and for some papers I really have to depend whole-heartedly on the Lord, but I am so glad I can trust in His amazing grace and not to be anxious over the results. so praise God!

oh, and I think I might risk going out straight after the last exam paper this tuesday. haha, how can I reject a date with shu hui right?:) so hopefully, my immune system will tahan a little more. I'm looking forward to ending off this last school semester of our second year with a blast! and then the three months' worth of holidays that will be filled by work at CHIJ St Nics, lots of Starbucks sessions, baking and cooking sessions, and plenty of time spent with my very dear ones:D

haha, exciting times ahead!

It's all into Your hands Lord. I do so love You.

It's for You Lord:)

I feel better after a really long nap of two hours after I studied for a while in the morning. Emotional breakdowns really do sap my energy away, I couldn't help the lethargy after the reflection on what I read, and I guess I just needed to rest.

I shall not give up, nor give in to the want to just drop everything and move on. but I shall also not invest too much of my feelings and expectations also. Expectations are really bothersome no? But to tell the truth, I was really quite hurt after I read those words of yours. It's like I really wanted to help, but it turned out wrong on your side, and I guess I was feeling hurt that I couldn't do anything to help and that I was a burden instead. But at times, I really just want to ask you if I do mean anything to you. I know you'll probably won't answer, cause it's not in your character to do so, but somehow, just now, I just really wanted to know if I mattered to you.

But even if I get no answers, I will just smile as He gives me reason to, and just do whatever He wants me to. :)

dwindling the time away

I'm here trying to while my time away. After the nerve-wrecking rush of essay week for the past month, now that i'm free, I feel weird. I keep waking up in the mornings thinking I have to start typing my thesis statements. haha, honestly, I think I have "essay-withdrawal symptoms". so the weekend started off lazily. Good friday yesterday was awesome! elaine came to church to support our church's very own production of Blood Brothers, and she enjoyed it:) so did I. the acting was great and really touching, I teared like two or three times. and praise God for the amazing altar-call!:)

And I am still in awe of how much God loves every single one of us. that no matter what problems we face or difficulties we have, God is still God. In every season of our lives, God never fails to be who He is, and that is the reason why we can sing and the reason why we can love=)

on monday, the work will probably start again and just three more weeks to the long-awaited three months' worth of summer holidays!