The weekend has just started, and already I can sense the excitement in the air. Four papers down, one last one to go. The astronomy paper was tough like we expected, and yet I had fun doing it. and then we went to ambush for dinner, it was simple and nice:) I'm really quite glad that my girlfriends make the effort to make me feel welcomed and comfortable when we go out together with their respective partners:D I'm just naturally shy when it comes to relationships, and sometimes I don't know what to say, but there has never been a time when I felt out of place. I think it matters a lot to all of us when it comes to balancing our friendships and relationships. It's like what grace said on friday, sometimes, we want to ask, and be there for our girlfriends, but we don't know how to. Nevertheless, we try.
Speaking of which, grace is back! and we had lunch(ban mian!) at the food court in marina square, and after which, we made our customary trip to Starbucks:)
Dark Cherry Frapp didn't disappoint;)I wished the toffeenut latte had more coffee and lesser milk. In any case, it was a relaxing time, and we were just talking about random things. I think we are at a stage in life when our conversations usually end up with the topic of relationships. and it got me thinking, sometimes I have things I want to share with my friends, but I just don't know how to.
I can't seem to put my feelings into words, and even if I do, they end up sounding awkward and silly. haha, that's me I guess.
And the funny thing is, now that I feel like I can share, I realize there's nothing to share anymore. So once again, when people ask, "do you have someone you like?", I end up saying no, because, it's the truth for now.
And I guess one thing that stops me from sharing is how my ideals and expectations are always too high to others. I know I sound too idealistic, and it may even come across as wishful thinking. But, I really don't want to let go of my expectations, because to me, if I let go of my expectations, then the person will not be the one I am really looking for. it's like grace's "all or nothing" belief. I mean certain not so important qualities can be overlooked, but some qualities are so crucial that they are almost necessary. Okay, I have no idea why I just typed an entire post about this. The words just came out. haha. I'm using this blog to tell of all the things that I want to say, but can't. so yeah. bear with me.
one more paper, and we're done for the semester:)
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