last lecture for 209~

生日快乐!

haha. today marks officially the first year of my love-at-christmas.

and it was a long tuesday in school today as usual. and the main reason why I came to blog is because I wanted to say how much I will miss prof. koh and her lectures. I mean it's kinda weird cause it's not like I am really close to her or anything, but somehow, I just really like her. it's a strange feeling. I don't remember being so upset about other professors who have already left us. why is it that professors here are like here for one or two semesters and they'll pack up their bags and leave?

first it was prof kenneth chan, then prof quigley, and now prof. koh. and the thing is, we're just getting warmed up to the lessons! sigh.

and apparantly buddy is right. there's no privacy on the net. it's like today prof. koh was telling us how she chanced upon a student's blog and it so happens that the student was blogging about her. well.

anyway, today's 207 lesson left me feeling quite guilty and burdened. sigh. why was I staring so intently at my notes?? I guess I just don't feel comfortable as of yet to look people in the eye. I remember I used to be able to just look at others while we talk, but now I seem to be more "interested" in glancing down and fixing my eyes to the side of the faces of people who are close to me. I feel so scrutinised. and I feel like I stare too much. haha. I honestly say that I stare not because I am staring, but rather, when I am listening intently, I have this look that passes off as staring. sheez. why am I explaining myself?

haha. it's the overflow of the guilt. but no worries! I'll be guilt-free in just a while!haha. romans 8:1- there is now NO CONDEMNATION in Christ Jesus.

how I miss the way SP would teach that over and over again on sundays. kinda like how ms. aminah used to drill economic theories into our heads. but of course SP does it in a non-intimidating mode.

that's about it for my ranting. perhaps I'll edit it later. till then!