sorrow into joy~

Thank God for the B-!

haha. for my hl 105 hw. of course it wasn't the grade I expected, but instead, it's even better=)

of course I was upset(and a bit afraid before seeing the grade), but indeed, blessed are the mournful, for God will turn their sorrow into joy.

He taught me two lessons today. He showed me that my God is not just someone who is around when I'm happy, but that He is also around when I am feeling down. That indeed my God is my refuge and strong tower. and I thank Him all the more because of that.

He showed me also that my value in His eyes is the highest. He told me that His love does not in any way depend on me. The world can give me any grade they want, pin any tags or labels on me, but I know that in His eyes, I am precious. And that it doesn't matter to Him what the world thinks of me, or say I am, because my identity and self-worth are based on Christ my rock.my self-esteem and happiness should not be swayed by what is in the world, for we are not of the world, we are of God!

so yes Lord, I hear you soft but clear=)haha,thank You for letting me hear Your whisper faster and clearer this time round!

btw, He taught me something about the course that I am in right now. I like literature a lot, but He has also shown me that what I hoped for in literature isn't really the real thing. like you know how teachers also say that in lit, it's your opinion that matters and how you argue it?we learned in uni that what matters are also the markers and tutors, cause their subjectivity is what determines your "ability", by the grades they give you. so yup. I still like lit, I like the skills and interesting things we learn, but definitely I am not in favour of how we tweak our essays to match what we think the tutors like. maybe when I'm out of school, then can I use the skills that I've learned and write the things that I WANT!=)

haha. yes, I'm longing for the days where I can just write about things which truly matter to me and not have anyone judge it based on the set of criteria they have. to me, critique is important, but not essential. tell me how I can improve on my skills, but don't tell me my points are wrong or I'm not in sync with the world. because, how can our points be wrong when lit teaches us to have our own points?=)

also!I feel very very blessed now. there are so much more exciting and blessed times ahead!haha, so to all you who are schooling and working, let us take heart in Jesus!

love you all, and love you Jesus!

thank You for always being here with me, and helping me to see things the way You see them.