I've hit 100 posts in this blog of mine! haha, unofficially of course. that's because there's like so many drafts for personal viewing only. haha.
anyway. it's hard at this stage in my life to not go all emo and to feel down once in a while. haha, maybe these few months I've been emo-ing more. I suppose it's because at this point, I see things clearer now and yes, God has been showing more things to me from His perspective. and it's like I've always been seeing things from my perspective, and when I see how narrow my perspective has been and how self-centred I've been for the past few years, I just felt a little down. it's like He's telling me to let go, but I've been refusing and trying to cling harder to things and people, depending and relying on them for too long and for too much.
I'm a people-person by nature and when everyone around me seems to be slipping away, and I don't feel close to them anymore, that's when I start being upset. but I'm also very clear of one point. It is when I realise that God is the only one I have, that I know that He is the only one I need and want.
as cliche as it sounds, it is really one truth I believe in. and I remember reading once about hearing God's music in life. It is when the noises of your family, your friends, everyone else's fade away, that you can hear and listen to God's music the most clearly. As I sat in the train today, I had my earphones plugged into my ears, and I just sat there in my own world listening to my music. when the song, "Come, Now is the time to worship" came on, I just couldn't help but smile even though I was supposed to be sleeping, or trying to.
Indeed, now is the time for worship.
I still find it difficult to let go completely, but I know He's helping me to. I'm still learning to hand over the reins to Him, to let Him be the one holding my life together. and I'm still trying to depend solely on Jesus for His joy in my life, that one day I will not have to have the happiness that depends on happenings, but to have the joy that depends on Jesus.
and I know ever more clearly now His promise that He will never leave me nor forsake me.
one day Lord, there will come one day where all I can think about, all I can speak about will be You. but for now, just let me worship you with my lips and my life. may You continue to hold my hand and walk with me, walk with me back home.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
can we not let go?
I folded paper hearts with the bus tickets today. and it felt nostalgic. I remembered how I used to be so good at folding those hearts,but today the paper just didn't co-operate. the hearts ended up lopsided. and my fingers felt clumsy as I folded the tickets and it felt off. like I wasn't doing it right.
I kept the hearts in my wallet anyway.
over the past few days, I have typed many many posts, but not even one managed to be posted up. I don't know why, but it just happens.
there was one draft on my driving lesson. another on nostalgia, feelings I had after seeing our old photos in yj. another post on songs. and now this.
I miss the times where we could just sit together and talk and laugh over nonsensical stuff. I miss those times where it was just us. over the months, other things and people came into our lives, many came and went, some stayed. and I guess it happens. I know we won't leave one another, I know our friendship is here to stay. but I guess something feels like it's lost? a part of me knows this is natural and expected.yet, I cannot seem to be able to accept it fully.
it's times like this that I wonder if the optimism we have held all throughout the years going to see us through? at first some of us were pessimistic, then as we grew closer, we had more confidence and greater assurance that we're going to last for the long-haul. now as even more time lapses, and as we all have our individual paths, it takes more to hold on to what seems to be already slipping away. that closeness seems like a thing of the past. at times, it feels like it's the same, nothing much has changed, but at other times, the stark difference hits me and I end up tearing.
again, perhaps I'm being too emotional and sensitive. but I guess I'm learning how to handle it better these days.
I wanted to type this post for a very long time now. I just wasn't prepared to type the feelings down till now.
Hold all things loosely, but hold on to Christ with all that you have.
I've heard this line before but I've never understood it. I guess I do now.
I kept the hearts in my wallet anyway.
over the past few days, I have typed many many posts, but not even one managed to be posted up. I don't know why, but it just happens.
there was one draft on my driving lesson. another on nostalgia, feelings I had after seeing our old photos in yj. another post on songs. and now this.
I miss the times where we could just sit together and talk and laugh over nonsensical stuff. I miss those times where it was just us. over the months, other things and people came into our lives, many came and went, some stayed. and I guess it happens. I know we won't leave one another, I know our friendship is here to stay. but I guess something feels like it's lost? a part of me knows this is natural and expected.yet, I cannot seem to be able to accept it fully.
it's times like this that I wonder if the optimism we have held all throughout the years going to see us through? at first some of us were pessimistic, then as we grew closer, we had more confidence and greater assurance that we're going to last for the long-haul. now as even more time lapses, and as we all have our individual paths, it takes more to hold on to what seems to be already slipping away. that closeness seems like a thing of the past. at times, it feels like it's the same, nothing much has changed, but at other times, the stark difference hits me and I end up tearing.
again, perhaps I'm being too emotional and sensitive. but I guess I'm learning how to handle it better these days.
I wanted to type this post for a very long time now. I just wasn't prepared to type the feelings down till now.
Hold all things loosely, but hold on to Christ with all that you have.
I've heard this line before but I've never understood it. I guess I do now.
Friday, May 16, 2008
relief teaching~
highlight of the day: meeting carol in town!
haha. it was a really pleasant surprise which involved a good, warm hug=)
it was quite impactful because I know I miss carol, but I didn't know I miss her so much till I met her. haha. I'm being sentimental here again. but! I'm glad school's out and we'll be meeting soon!
besides that, I said I'll blog about my relief teaching experience, and hence I will.
on wednesday morning, I was finally called down and I surprisingly managed to pick the call up. thank God cause I actually went back to sleep. haha, I jerked back awake only because I didn't let go of the phone in my hand..
second phrase of relief teaching started off with two primary five students asking, "are you the relief teacher for our class 5A? hurry! we have a basketball tournament!"
so we rushed out and..had to stop right in our tracks as the national anthem started playing. haha. and I just stood right in the corridor grinning like a fool as I tried to remember the lyrics of the anthem and trying to sing along. haha. I even stumbled over the words of the national pledge! this shows how long it has been since I last heard or recited the national pledge.
and I really think I've experienced basically everything that can be experienced in a primary school in so short a time.
the national anthem and pledge. an unexpected basketball tournament. games in the music room and the computer lab. the giving out of exam papers. the shouting over the noisy, rowdy bunch of pri. 5 students. having food that costs less than 2 dollars for lunch. recess duty. the teaching of P5 english and math. a sudden fire drill(that had me going, "are you kidding me??). the conversations with the kids. the having to go, "hey people..class, class, CLASS!! 5A!"
surprisingly, it took me a much shorter time to remember their names and faces. and I feel that over the past two days, they have taught me a lot. I've learned that at times, it's okay to just play hard and make as much noise as you want. as they were playing games during the last period of today, I was like, "ssh..please lower down your volume..", I was just afraid that they would disturb the other classes. I was so occupied with the noise that I didn't realise that the other classes were out. and in the end, I just ended up playing in the game and enjoying the looks of happiness and laughter from them.
there is a time for work, but there is also a time for fun.
haha. it was a really pleasant surprise which involved a good, warm hug=)
it was quite impactful because I know I miss carol, but I didn't know I miss her so much till I met her. haha. I'm being sentimental here again. but! I'm glad school's out and we'll be meeting soon!
besides that, I said I'll blog about my relief teaching experience, and hence I will.
on wednesday morning, I was finally called down and I surprisingly managed to pick the call up. thank God cause I actually went back to sleep. haha, I jerked back awake only because I didn't let go of the phone in my hand..
second phrase of relief teaching started off with two primary five students asking, "are you the relief teacher for our class 5A? hurry! we have a basketball tournament!"
so we rushed out and..had to stop right in our tracks as the national anthem started playing. haha. and I just stood right in the corridor grinning like a fool as I tried to remember the lyrics of the anthem and trying to sing along. haha. I even stumbled over the words of the national pledge! this shows how long it has been since I last heard or recited the national pledge.
and I really think I've experienced basically everything that can be experienced in a primary school in so short a time.
the national anthem and pledge. an unexpected basketball tournament. games in the music room and the computer lab. the giving out of exam papers. the shouting over the noisy, rowdy bunch of pri. 5 students. having food that costs less than 2 dollars for lunch. recess duty. the teaching of P5 english and math. a sudden fire drill(that had me going, "are you kidding me??). the conversations with the kids. the having to go, "hey people..class, class, CLASS!! 5A!"
surprisingly, it took me a much shorter time to remember their names and faces. and I feel that over the past two days, they have taught me a lot. I've learned that at times, it's okay to just play hard and make as much noise as you want. as they were playing games during the last period of today, I was like, "ssh..please lower down your volume..", I was just afraid that they would disturb the other classes. I was so occupied with the noise that I didn't realise that the other classes were out. and in the end, I just ended up playing in the game and enjoying the looks of happiness and laughter from them.
there is a time for work, but there is also a time for fun.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
"doctor's"/rt's woes~
it took me five tries before I could even sign in to blogspot to type this post.
Five tries!
anyway, that's not the point.
buddy, I think you'll excel in spanish!it took me like a week before I could even remotely remember the words I shared with you on sun. haha.
you've got the name part and the goodbye absolutely right. the spelling for hello and goodnight is actually: "Hola"(cause the h in spanish is always silent for some reason), and "buenas noches". =)
haha. I wanted to type this in the tagboard, but I think it would take up too much space.
oh, and did I tell you, I received a Jared Anderson CD!!haha, thanks again my beloved road partner;)
God is awesome!haha, what else can I say yeah?
and I'm glad amidst all the down-ness, God is always here to provide the joy and blessings. we just need to base our joy on Him rather than our happiness on our feelings. haha. I learned that happiness is based on ourselves and others, whereas true joy can only be from the Lord=)
may the joy of the Lord be our strength always!when our strength fails, let us not be discouraged but let us turn to Him for help. even when we have no strength even to turn to Him, ask and He will gladly draw you to His side. for we are and will always be His beloved children. haha, I'm in the habit of using the word "beloved", it sounds so nice, so cherished don't you think?
=).
alright. it's wayyy past my bed-time.
one last note! I wonder how doctors and nurses can bear being "on-call" in their lives. I was like "on-call" position for the past two days and I'm like suffering from really bad eyebags and post-trauma from imagining the phone ringing every possible moment.
imagine me with frizzy hair, lying on my bed at 6.30 am, holding my phone and snapping my eyes open every five seconds just to ensure I won't fall asleep..and then finally at 6.55am, when I decide the school won't call, I try to go back to sleep and...be jerked back up when random people message me in the morning. I mean seriously, let me sleep people! haha. I'm kidding. friends and family, you all are exempted. but like today, a message from SINGTEL prevented me from sleeping well. sheez.
okay. I'm off to prepare for my duty again. "On guard!"
Five tries!
anyway, that's not the point.
buddy, I think you'll excel in spanish!it took me like a week before I could even remotely remember the words I shared with you on sun. haha.
you've got the name part and the goodbye absolutely right. the spelling for hello and goodnight is actually: "Hola"(cause the h in spanish is always silent for some reason), and "buenas noches". =)
haha. I wanted to type this in the tagboard, but I think it would take up too much space.
oh, and did I tell you, I received a Jared Anderson CD!!haha, thanks again my beloved road partner;)
God is awesome!haha, what else can I say yeah?
and I'm glad amidst all the down-ness, God is always here to provide the joy and blessings. we just need to base our joy on Him rather than our happiness on our feelings. haha. I learned that happiness is based on ourselves and others, whereas true joy can only be from the Lord=)
may the joy of the Lord be our strength always!when our strength fails, let us not be discouraged but let us turn to Him for help. even when we have no strength even to turn to Him, ask and He will gladly draw you to His side. for we are and will always be His beloved children. haha, I'm in the habit of using the word "beloved", it sounds so nice, so cherished don't you think?
=).
alright. it's wayyy past my bed-time.
one last note! I wonder how doctors and nurses can bear being "on-call" in their lives. I was like "on-call" position for the past two days and I'm like suffering from really bad eyebags and post-trauma from imagining the phone ringing every possible moment.
imagine me with frizzy hair, lying on my bed at 6.30 am, holding my phone and snapping my eyes open every five seconds just to ensure I won't fall asleep..and then finally at 6.55am, when I decide the school won't call, I try to go back to sleep and...be jerked back up when random people message me in the morning. I mean seriously, let me sleep people! haha. I'm kidding. friends and family, you all are exempted. but like today, a message from SINGTEL prevented me from sleeping well. sheez.
okay. I'm off to prepare for my duty again. "On guard!"
Saturday, May 10, 2008
I like randomness'
I'm exhausted.
funny huh? it's supposed to be the holidays but I'm like tired out.
oh well, it's a friday. end of the week thing I guess.
this is random. but, grace! accent, accent...three months and you have an accent??
haha. call back real soon yeah, and annoy ronnie with your aussie accent. haha, she'll persuade you to drop it. or maybe not;)
as for me, I would absolutely like to hear it! haha, no opinions on the accent, just interested in how you sound like now:)
ooh. and did I mention how I am like falling in love with the chinese language? I think you've influenced me in that. haha.. but it's mainly due to the chinese songs and shows I've been exposed to this holiday=)
it's awesome. I still cannot believe the hold the language is having over me..
as for today..it went well. dinner with yiwen and sharon was great!haha. had my sashimi fix. like finally. but I still do miss my sushi tei's and the soba there. people(you know who you are),let's make a date there during december kay?
and as for the school buds, yiwen, I wanna try the pasta place you recommended soon!
haha, it's all about the food man.
oh, and sammie and I watched Ironman yesterday.
haha. apart from the non-existent plot and character development, the movie was well worth it=)haha, but I honestly feel that the audience is there to watch it, and like it simply because of the special effects and robert downey jr. haha. the lead actor rocks. like I always say, it's the older guys who have that special charm. even if they have this weird metal thing for a heart and have a thing for technology.
nice:)
I realise this post is absolutely random. I have no idea what I have just typed and I have no idea what is going to be up next.
ermm..oh, and tomorrow's "downloading of songs day"! so my beloved readers, if you so happen to read this post, and so happen to have time, could you please send me a selection of songs that you like and have?thank you so so much in advance!haha, and thanks yiwen for starting the ball rolling!
what else?
I'm intent on making this post last. to get all the random things I've been keeping inside my mind out.
I have only 7 more months to complete my resolution for the year.
I want to eat more, play more and work more.
I want to go swinging soon.
I miss Starbucks time.
thank God for providing a chaperon for our Cambodia trip!thank you people for praying=)
leccion(lesson) one- Me llamo Jean. pronounce it like: Mie yamo (your name).
anyway, that wasn't the lesson I learned today. I want to share how God is telling me to wait. but not just to wait.
I've been asking Him to show me His individual race for me for some time now, and the answer that I've been getting is to wait and to trust in Him for the opportune time to reveal to me His plans. but just today as I was looking for books for grace, I chanced upon this book I've read once. emilie(a) barnes' "Help me to trust You Lord". and I just flipped the book open and the chapter it opened to was "how much longer Lord?"
and I was like hooked to it, and just started reading the chapter. and I learned that it's not just the waiting process that God wants me to have. He want me to focus on knowing also that He sees the big picture. that even though nothing seems to be happening now from what I can see, He sees it all and He is telling me "it's worth the wait".
for a God who sees the end from the beginning, it's easy to say that, but as how the author shared, and how I feel, it's tough, and God knows it too. and hence the title of the book. and the author also shared how as she waited for something in her life, God taught her to give thanks not only for the past and the present, but also for the future. and what started out as dutiful thanks in obedience to God changed into heartfelt thanks as she became more aware of how God is working in her life and step-by-step building the trust and faith in Him.
Lord, I want to be able to do that too. will You help me to trust You more? to know that You are our El Roi, our God who sees?
I'm smiling now as I think of how I'm typing a prayer that needs not be typed out for the one who answers already knows what I want to say even before I say it. but I want to type it down because when You answer, when the fruit of Your work is revealed, I will look back on this entry and praise You once again for Your mighty deeds and Your awesome power=)
funny huh? it's supposed to be the holidays but I'm like tired out.
oh well, it's a friday. end of the week thing I guess.
this is random. but, grace! accent, accent...three months and you have an accent??
haha. call back real soon yeah, and annoy ronnie with your aussie accent. haha, she'll persuade you to drop it. or maybe not;)
as for me, I would absolutely like to hear it! haha, no opinions on the accent, just interested in how you sound like now:)
ooh. and did I mention how I am like falling in love with the chinese language? I think you've influenced me in that. haha.. but it's mainly due to the chinese songs and shows I've been exposed to this holiday=)
it's awesome. I still cannot believe the hold the language is having over me..
as for today..it went well. dinner with yiwen and sharon was great!haha. had my sashimi fix. like finally. but I still do miss my sushi tei's and the soba there. people(you know who you are),let's make a date there during december kay?
and as for the school buds, yiwen, I wanna try the pasta place you recommended soon!
haha, it's all about the food man.
oh, and sammie and I watched Ironman yesterday.
haha. apart from the non-existent plot and character development, the movie was well worth it=)haha, but I honestly feel that the audience is there to watch it, and like it simply because of the special effects and robert downey jr. haha. the lead actor rocks. like I always say, it's the older guys who have that special charm. even if they have this weird metal thing for a heart and have a thing for technology.
nice:)
I realise this post is absolutely random. I have no idea what I have just typed and I have no idea what is going to be up next.
ermm..oh, and tomorrow's "downloading of songs day"! so my beloved readers, if you so happen to read this post, and so happen to have time, could you please send me a selection of songs that you like and have?thank you so so much in advance!haha, and thanks yiwen for starting the ball rolling!
what else?
I'm intent on making this post last. to get all the random things I've been keeping inside my mind out.
I have only 7 more months to complete my resolution for the year.
I want to eat more, play more and work more.
I want to go swinging soon.
I miss Starbucks time.
thank God for providing a chaperon for our Cambodia trip!thank you people for praying=)
leccion(lesson) one- Me llamo Jean. pronounce it like: Mie yamo (your name).
anyway, that wasn't the lesson I learned today. I want to share how God is telling me to wait. but not just to wait.
I've been asking Him to show me His individual race for me for some time now, and the answer that I've been getting is to wait and to trust in Him for the opportune time to reveal to me His plans. but just today as I was looking for books for grace, I chanced upon this book I've read once. emilie(a) barnes' "Help me to trust You Lord". and I just flipped the book open and the chapter it opened to was "how much longer Lord?"
and I was like hooked to it, and just started reading the chapter. and I learned that it's not just the waiting process that God wants me to have. He want me to focus on knowing also that He sees the big picture. that even though nothing seems to be happening now from what I can see, He sees it all and He is telling me "it's worth the wait".
for a God who sees the end from the beginning, it's easy to say that, but as how the author shared, and how I feel, it's tough, and God knows it too. and hence the title of the book. and the author also shared how as she waited for something in her life, God taught her to give thanks not only for the past and the present, but also for the future. and what started out as dutiful thanks in obedience to God changed into heartfelt thanks as she became more aware of how God is working in her life and step-by-step building the trust and faith in Him.
Lord, I want to be able to do that too. will You help me to trust You more? to know that You are our El Roi, our God who sees?
I'm smiling now as I think of how I'm typing a prayer that needs not be typed out for the one who answers already knows what I want to say even before I say it. but I want to type it down because when You answer, when the fruit of Your work is revealed, I will look back on this entry and praise You once again for Your mighty deeds and Your awesome power=)
Thursday, May 8, 2008
a series of blessed events~
haha. I didn't know you girls are interested in spanish too!
alright. one of the sundays we'll start learning how to say simple phrases in spanish! and I'm really interested to find out how to say "Jesus loves you" in spanish too..but I don't think the tutor will teach that though. haha, I guess further research needs to be done=)
apart from that, the day has been really good. a series of interesting things happened throughout the day..haha.
well firstly, I walked in the rain today.
feeling the droplets of water on my hair was quite refreshing and it kinda broke the momentum of the routine life for the past few days. and as I was sitting down in the train to school today, this small kid next to me just randomly started smiling at me and leaning her forehead against my arm. haha. I tell you, the strangest things happen on board the trains..
I guess the kid was just plain mischievous, and there were like so so many kids in strollers in the train today. the whole cabin was filled with strollers, with Indian mums and their kids bawling away, a guy with an eye patch, a girl trying to balance two school books, her bag and a box of shoes together on her lap while trying to read..
haha. I must confess, I was the latter. and somehow, even though the kids were bawling away, their screams sounded almost pleasant today..and as the little kid next to me leaned on me, I just couldn't help but smile widely as I read my book. haha, I was a bit shy, do I didn't really turn round properly to face the kid and her mum, just a brief smile at them.
all in all, quite an eventful ride.
met up with the school buds, got my fave sugarcane drink and headed for our second spanish lesson. Thank You Jesus! for really blessing the lesson=) I enjoyed today's class so much more, and I was able to block out 65% of the intimidationess of the tutor. intimidationess...I think I just invented a word.
anyway, one last thing, as me and my mum were choosing bed sheets from aussino just now, the sales lady was like commenting in chinese that I was very casual and non-fussy when I was choosing my bed sheets, and she advised me not to be the same when choosing a partner. and I was like immediately, "of course not". haha, in chinese!
haha.some things don't really change..I will definitely still have my expectations.
btw, does any of you have any cds by Jared Anderson? His voice is just amazing and the few songs I've heard from him are just simply brilliant. one of the more recet discovery is "Amazed". haha, I Youtubed it. it's really nice.
oh right..I'm off to sleep soon. goodnight people! and grace, one more month till the holidays!
alright. one of the sundays we'll start learning how to say simple phrases in spanish! and I'm really interested to find out how to say "Jesus loves you" in spanish too..but I don't think the tutor will teach that though. haha, I guess further research needs to be done=)
apart from that, the day has been really good. a series of interesting things happened throughout the day..haha.
well firstly, I walked in the rain today.
feeling the droplets of water on my hair was quite refreshing and it kinda broke the momentum of the routine life for the past few days. and as I was sitting down in the train to school today, this small kid next to me just randomly started smiling at me and leaning her forehead against my arm. haha. I tell you, the strangest things happen on board the trains..
I guess the kid was just plain mischievous, and there were like so so many kids in strollers in the train today. the whole cabin was filled with strollers, with Indian mums and their kids bawling away, a guy with an eye patch, a girl trying to balance two school books, her bag and a box of shoes together on her lap while trying to read..
haha. I must confess, I was the latter. and somehow, even though the kids were bawling away, their screams sounded almost pleasant today..and as the little kid next to me leaned on me, I just couldn't help but smile widely as I read my book. haha, I was a bit shy, do I didn't really turn round properly to face the kid and her mum, just a brief smile at them.
all in all, quite an eventful ride.
met up with the school buds, got my fave sugarcane drink and headed for our second spanish lesson. Thank You Jesus! for really blessing the lesson=) I enjoyed today's class so much more, and I was able to block out 65% of the intimidationess of the tutor. intimidationess...I think I just invented a word.
anyway, one last thing, as me and my mum were choosing bed sheets from aussino just now, the sales lady was like commenting in chinese that I was very casual and non-fussy when I was choosing my bed sheets, and she advised me not to be the same when choosing a partner. and I was like immediately, "of course not". haha, in chinese!
haha.some things don't really change..I will definitely still have my expectations.
btw, does any of you have any cds by Jared Anderson? His voice is just amazing and the few songs I've heard from him are just simply brilliant. one of the more recet discovery is "Amazed". haha, I Youtubed it. it's really nice.
oh right..I'm off to sleep soon. goodnight people! and grace, one more month till the holidays!
Monday, May 5, 2008
hair matters
My hair is finally chopped off.
haha. after months of waiting.
but such is the case with hair matters for me. normally, it takes me months of saying I want to do something to my hair before it happens.
my hair's relatively short right now, and it looks somewhat similar to the original style, just much shorter. haha. I'm back to my jc two days. it's a bit pong at the top, and hence I'm considering whether I should re-bond it. haha. it's actually quite messy due to the length. and the ends really look like they were chopped off. but I quite like it. haha. I like the whole messy feel to it. the colour's simple reddish-brown, which is nice, but makes me want to be slightly more adventurous next time.
that said, I'm headed back to school tomorrow. haha. after 10 days of slacking, it's time to hit the books and pick up the new language.
as for today, I just felt so thankful once again. it's actually just a relatively normal sunday, but it's like every time we have service and cell, I just feel so glad to be a part of our church. Just being there to have worship, to have bible study..just some quality time spent with my cell. though the time is short, and at times, we only meet up once a week, but somehow every meeting feels special.
I just love going to church on sundays=)
haha. and my prayer for many many weeks now, is to really be transformed by His power, to be changed day-by-day into Jesus' likeness. we talked about this in cell today!
and one of these days I'll post the lyrics of the song "Power of Your love". we sang this in cell's worship today and it just really reminded me of God's promise to me about how the power of His love will strip all my weaknesses away.
oh, and my mum and I hit town on sat to do my hair, and it was fantastic! haha, I really enjoyed the bonding time . and my mum absolutely rocks!haha, cause I said I wanted the chocolate with rhum inside, and she bought it for me!=)it's not only that, but like how she accompanied me to do my hair, how she patiently waited for me, and so much more that I just cannot put down into words.
and dad decided to drive us to church this morning. haha. I was quite glad as it means I can nap a little before church. haha. I'm hardly a morning person. Jie called all the way from sydney today too! but the line was cut off before I could ask her how's the trip been so far..but oh well, she sounded like she's having fun!
the weekend has been great, and I'm looking forward to the week ahead!
NUS people, jia you! just two or three more days till the holidays!
right-o. back to my slacking.(haha, it used to be back to norton).
haha. after months of waiting.
but such is the case with hair matters for me. normally, it takes me months of saying I want to do something to my hair before it happens.
my hair's relatively short right now, and it looks somewhat similar to the original style, just much shorter. haha. I'm back to my jc two days. it's a bit pong at the top, and hence I'm considering whether I should re-bond it. haha. it's actually quite messy due to the length. and the ends really look like they were chopped off. but I quite like it. haha. I like the whole messy feel to it. the colour's simple reddish-brown, which is nice, but makes me want to be slightly more adventurous next time.
that said, I'm headed back to school tomorrow. haha. after 10 days of slacking, it's time to hit the books and pick up the new language.
as for today, I just felt so thankful once again. it's actually just a relatively normal sunday, but it's like every time we have service and cell, I just feel so glad to be a part of our church. Just being there to have worship, to have bible study..just some quality time spent with my cell. though the time is short, and at times, we only meet up once a week, but somehow every meeting feels special.
I just love going to church on sundays=)
haha. and my prayer for many many weeks now, is to really be transformed by His power, to be changed day-by-day into Jesus' likeness. we talked about this in cell today!
and one of these days I'll post the lyrics of the song "Power of Your love". we sang this in cell's worship today and it just really reminded me of God's promise to me about how the power of His love will strip all my weaknesses away.
oh, and my mum and I hit town on sat to do my hair, and it was fantastic! haha, I really enjoyed the bonding time . and my mum absolutely rocks!haha, cause I said I wanted the chocolate with rhum inside, and she bought it for me!=)it's not only that, but like how she accompanied me to do my hair, how she patiently waited for me, and so much more that I just cannot put down into words.
and dad decided to drive us to church this morning. haha. I was quite glad as it means I can nap a little before church. haha. I'm hardly a morning person. Jie called all the way from sydney today too! but the line was cut off before I could ask her how's the trip been so far..but oh well, she sounded like she's having fun!
the weekend has been great, and I'm looking forward to the week ahead!
NUS people, jia you! just two or three more days till the holidays!
right-o. back to my slacking.(haha, it used to be back to norton).
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Shakespeare on Love~
Oh my.
I was just reading the synopsis of the latest episode of House MD, and the illness the patient has, caused personality changes to the extent that his niceness becomes a symptom. Niceness as a symptom for an illness??
anyway, the Kutner doctor really looks like Kal Penn, the Kumar actor, I wonder if it's really him.
oh, and we caught the play "Shakespeare on Love" last Tuesday. It wasn't what I expected, but it turned out quite well. I didn't even realise how much I missed watching plays until that day. It's like there was this one moment where I was just sitting there in the relatively small theatre, and I just happened to glance up. I saw how the theatre lights lit up the entire room, and how everything seemed so clear at that moment. and how because of the performance going on, the audience could only remain an individual and remark on the play silently. but as the comedic parts came in, all of us were like laughing together and enjoying the play without even a word being passed between any of us. it felt really good to be there.
to be able to laugh out loud and relax without any worries.
in the end, I didn't really learn much about what Shakespeare thought of love or how he viewed it, but it was great being able to just be part of an audience. and it was funny also when Othello came on, and all three of us were like "I remember memorising those quotes for my essays!", as quoted from sharon. it was fun re-collecting the jc memories as the actors recited the fond lines from the text.
"Trifles light as air..."
"Reputation, reputation, reputation!"
haha.. the rest is history. all jumbled up. I remember something about a man who loved not wisely but too much? and of Othello casting a pearl away?
haha. oh well. at least when the lines were performed on stage, it was familiar to me.
one last thought, I wonder what we will be like 5 years later?
I was just reading the synopsis of the latest episode of House MD, and the illness the patient has, caused personality changes to the extent that his niceness becomes a symptom. Niceness as a symptom for an illness??
anyway, the Kutner doctor really looks like Kal Penn, the Kumar actor, I wonder if it's really him.
oh, and we caught the play "Shakespeare on Love" last Tuesday. It wasn't what I expected, but it turned out quite well. I didn't even realise how much I missed watching plays until that day. It's like there was this one moment where I was just sitting there in the relatively small theatre, and I just happened to glance up. I saw how the theatre lights lit up the entire room, and how everything seemed so clear at that moment. and how because of the performance going on, the audience could only remain an individual and remark on the play silently. but as the comedic parts came in, all of us were like laughing together and enjoying the play without even a word being passed between any of us. it felt really good to be there.
to be able to laugh out loud and relax without any worries.
in the end, I didn't really learn much about what Shakespeare thought of love or how he viewed it, but it was great being able to just be part of an audience. and it was funny also when Othello came on, and all three of us were like "I remember memorising those quotes for my essays!", as quoted from sharon. it was fun re-collecting the jc memories as the actors recited the fond lines from the text.
"Trifles light as air..."
"Reputation, reputation, reputation!"
haha.. the rest is history. all jumbled up. I remember something about a man who loved not wisely but too much? and of Othello casting a pearl away?
haha. oh well. at least when the lines were performed on stage, it was familiar to me.
one last thought, I wonder what we will be like 5 years later?
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