I hope the answer is "if she does not have Jesus".
It was just a random thought, as the person cooking noodles at j8 asked me if I am a local after a short conversation. So I walked home after that and I was just thinking if it's because my chinese sounds different or because I am just too dark. then the next thing that came into my mind was well..I won't be me if I am not dark. Which led me to think of this constant hope that my life and person will be defined by the presence of God. That when people think or talk about me, they will think and talk about Jesus:D
haha. What characterizes your life or your person?:) I think this is a very personal but significant question to ask and to answer.
in any case, we settled the dorm fees today, and we are hoping that at the end of everything, we won't need to pay too much money. I believe we can do it! Live simply and happily without being too concerned about money issues:) I feel excited thinking about how we the school buds will draw closer to each other during the exchange!
and we met Charlene today at amk! I was so glad to see her:D Thank God! As fashionable as ever, but a little tired looking to me (must be due to the recent A Levels). But, she still has that aggressive way of hugging. haha, weird choice of word, but yeah, I still love the hugs she gives:) am making plans to meet her and lynard for lunch next week. hope that will turn out well! I just realized she is 20 this year, and we are 22 now.
I know a lot will change this year, and though I am a little hesitant, I do want to learn to embrace all the exciting plans He has in store for us:)
called the cryptic one just now, and I was telling her how I believe we are not the type of people who will run away when she wants to share. rather, we are the ones who will buy a nice cup of coffee and listen to all she has to say. so whenever she's ready.
on a last note,we ended off service last sunday with this worship song, "Be Magnified, O Lord", and I was just struck by how the lyrics reflected everything in my heart.
I have made You too small in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me;
I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.
CHORUS:
Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be magnified.
Be magnified, O Lord
You are highly exalted;
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord, my eyes are on You.
Be magnified,
O Lord, be magnified.
I have leaned on the wisdom of men
O Lord, forgive me;
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy.
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong;
And in my eyes with my song
O Lord, be magnified
O Lord, be magnified.
I have been troubled over a couple of issues. well, mainly about the korean language learning issue, and my subtle need for people's approval. So as I was just waiting for Sharon at the mrt station,I still did not experience the peace of God about the two issues. I was just too concerned about what I felt, and what I thought. I closed my eyes, listened to the music, and just prayed, and prayed.
Now, as I sit here, I feel like a burden has just been lifted off of me. I am able to see clear answers on what to do about the two issues. it will take a while more to test out whether the second issue is completely resolved, but I am just glad that I don't have to be anxious anymore. because the word of God says in phil 4:6-7, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
And also, jeremiah 29:11 says, 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future'.
So, I am not going to place God in a box of my own, and think that He is unable to bless and provide for me. I believe with God, everything is possible:)
Lord, let my heart desire what You desire for me, and let me turn away from what is wrong in Your eyes. Amen.
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