writing my papers~

Strangely enough, I'm bored on the first day of my much-awaited holidays.

There were so many times during the past three weeks when I just wanted to come online and type all that I wanted to. But I was just kept from doing so, I guess I couldn't really formulate what I really wanted to say. Honestly, the past three weeks have been really really long. 5 papers in 21 days. Now that I don't face the prospect of taking hour-long train rides, I feel that there's something missing. As weird as it sounds, I am actually contemplating taking the train one of these days, from one end to the other just for the sake of it.

Anyway, I guess I will do a review of this semester's exams. not for an update, cause I probably spilled all the good parts to many of you already, but for the sake of reminiscing, I shall put the experience down into words, or what I can remember for now.

Public organisation exam was relatively fine, just a lot of unexpected questions which the prof. didn't ask us to prepare for, so I just ended up creating nonsense on the spot. that's for the short-answer qns, for the essay, I really thought hard and long for the points I wanted to write. so it was a pretty good paper. as for bus. law, well, I've never felt more out of place. my pen ink couldn't flow well, my handwriting became like a mess of scrawling(from the start of the paper to the end), and I had no idea where to copy from. haha. everyone around me were like frantically taking information from their own notes and the textbooks, and I was just sitting down there thinking if I can include some of the points from the book. and I was even thinking whether I should include in-text citation (I did btw). so yeah, the experience was unusual, but alright I guess. the passages were quite fun to read on hindsight. Not grey's anatomy, but can do.

well, the most exceptional and astounding exam of the lot was really my 207-contemporary lit paper. my first lit paper in six months, and hence, completely mis-judged the time. haha, thought I had an extra half-hour. but really, the adrenaline that washes over you when you realise you have only 15 mins to write a 33m essay which needs 45 mins to make it decent, is kinda remarkable. for a moment there, I froze, and everything went blank(typical), then my hand stared moving rapidly across the lines. seriously, I had no time to think at all what my ink-filled pages would contain. it felt like a race to put as many words down on the page before time runs out. quite a bad strategy really, I should have at least made some clear ideas rather than pure rambling. but! after soaking this paper in prayer, the word, sharings with friends, I now view the experience as something quite worthwhile. I have faith the size of a mustard seed(or maybe two) regarding the results, but really, even though I know I could have done much better, but it's a paper I really won't forget. and for that, it's quite something. maybe it'll be one of those things I'll remember at the end of our four years. "Remember that time in year two, where I scribbled an essay in 15min and had to join in the extermination of a bag load of ants afterwards?" "Yeah..We remember it..that was quite an event huh?"

alright..I confess. Nowadays, I keep thinking of what's going to happen 2 and a half years later. the future awes me I guess.

anyway, to cut the long story short(sounds familiar?;)), 209- southeast asian lit and 223-american lit went rather well. just that I was pretty disappointed our respective tutors didn't turn up as invigilators. quite a let-down really. less distraction, but what a half-hearted conclusion to the semester. but interestingly enough, for my last paper, I had Ms Mona Chew, one of our previous yj's econs teachers as one of our invigilators. so amusing to have her walk up and down in the aisle beside me, it felt so familiar. and my apology to prof. sim when he collected the papers felt like I was saying sorry for not being able to do well for his module despite his efforts. and thanks, for the experience nonetheless.

and so, our revels now are ended. haha, quoting from sharon, who quoted from beckett, who quoted from shakespeare.

our world is one of inter-textuality.

so, please yue me out this holidays! haha, but I might decide to be an introvert and stay at home. don't feel much like socialising this time round. so probably, I'll meet up with just the close ones=)

right. I want my book and my manga. why oh why is Banville so hard to find? and I want my Stoppard too. Borders it is then.

Still, Thank You lots for the many many blessings You've given all through this while. I've made many mistakes, but Your love has covered them all. so a brilliant Hallelujah to You Lord! Be Magnified Lord; Be Glorified.