A lazy monday afternoon.

Looking at the world through slanted eyes.

I had to apply what I learnt in devotions today. meekness in the face of sovereignty. extremely hard lesson to learn, but when you get past it, the revelation is that it's really a simple lesson.

I was just feeling frustrated about plans today as I shared with the school buddies. and as I was walking home, I just felt angry at myself for causing extra work for others, and how things don't seem to be working out. I started rambling and that was when I remembered the devotions lesson. when things are not working out, and when you don't understand why, trust that He is good and He has the answers. and I remember praying to Him once, saying that if He allows me to go, then He will provide everything for us.

and as difficult as it was, I raised my hands and just surrended the matter to Him. albeit half-heartedly, with faith the size of just a mustard seed. and I let the matter go. not even an hour after that, the good news came in. everything's settled. and I just sat there on my sofa and wondered at the simplicity of how everything fell into place. and I was like, "Lord, I'm really sorry I took so long to trust in You". sometimes, we think it extremely difficult to let go of things, and to trust in Him. But honestly, on hindsight, it is just a matter of choosing to believe in His goodness.

thank You Lord, for teaching me that and for making all these possible. You're amazing, and not just because You give good and perfect gifts, but rather because You're the most perfect Giver.=)