is this the end?really?

wow. it has been quite some time since I last blogged. haha. I'm now listening to the presentation of my hw 111 module. somehow, it feels weird to see my group members on screen..haha, I am so going to skip my part. don't you agree that it is just awkward to see yourself on screen?

anyway, we had our last lecture of year one sem two today. it doesn't feel like the sem's ending though..maybe it's due to the fact that we still have one essay to hand in, and that there's still so much work we have to do to prepare for our exams!there is really so many texts, so much analysis and preparation work that needs to be done. I'm feeling a bit gan-chiong, but at the same time just having this mentality of, "okay, i'll just study the best I can, and just really trust that He'll see us through".

after this sem, I've really come to the realisation that there is so much I do not know, and there's just so much that I still cannot grasp hold of. it's like every essay that I hand in, every lecture and tutorial I attend just leaves me with a sense of I'm here, but not really there yet..like how I really do enjoy attending lessons and learning new things, but I'm just lacking the commitment to the modules, and feeling like I don't really fully understand it all..the info's just floating above my head and I'm just randomly grabbing stuff and points from the cloud when I need to do my work or talk to others about the modules. haha. it really feels like that. I was just thinking of this when I saw sharon's neat and super organised notes. haha, it's like completely different from my notes..instead of headings and color-coded chunks of info, my notes are full of asterisks and hearts all over the place to symbolise important points. and my words are like never straight and never on the lines, they just tend to stray off and end up like waves of words.

haha. so I have to either be more organised, or learn to really thrive in my messiness. hey, most geniuses are complicated and messy right?haha..the image of the crazy hair of Einstein just popped into my head=)

oh, and it was nice to just spend the last day of school(minus the exams) with the schoolmates:)just having our usual Q-bread, listening to prof. sim(and being amused by the funny antics of his, it was the animation in his slides today..),having yong-tau foo for lunch, and the usual train ride home..ordinary things, but somehow the meaning behind each matter is like wow=)

right-o. haha, sharon and I talked about the place to go for a vacation too, and we thought it's either Hongkong or Taiwan..or maybe other places..but carol, no malaysia please!speaking of which, grace, I hope your econs mid-sem and the presentation today both went really well!

update us about it when you're free kay?

I'm like almost always using my blog as a notice-board for notes. haha.

oh!

I received a letter from nicole today! buddy rocks:)

haha, the letter really came at the right time, and it was really sweet of her. It's like this HUGE smile just came upon my face as I read the simple but touching card she sent. all my anxieties about my work and everything just went away. "God cares for you." indeed, I'm learning to trust in His care more=)

nicole, if you see this, thank you so much for the letter again! it cheered me up lots and it's very much appreciated.

yup, I guess I have to get back to my work then.

Thank You Lord, for the amazing semester that we've had with You and thank You for just being You.