Saturday, March 29, 2008

Communication~

"Communication"

For 27 years I’ve been trying to believe and confide in
Different people I’ve found.
Some of them got closer than others
And someone wouldn’t even bother and then you came around
I didn’t really know what to call you, you didn’t know me at all
But I was happy to explain.
I never really knew how to move you
So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins

And I saw you
But that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect

You always seem to know where to find me and I’m still here behind you
In the corner of your eye.
I’ll never really learn how to love you
But I know that I love you through the hole in the sky.

Where I see you
And that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect

Well this is an invitation
It’s not a threat
If you want communication
That’s what you get

I’m talking and talking
But I don’t know
How to connect
And I hold a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect
I disconnect.


- Communication, by The Cardigans

The lyrics are beautiful. Go search for the song and listen to it, it amazes me every time I hear it. haha. it helps with work too! I'd listen to this as I type my essays. =)

a different morning~

Today feels different.

I woke up this morning, surrounded by light and there was this immediate sense of feeling that things are different somehow. Like something has changed overnight and I wasn't aware of it till this morning.

Even the usual set of routine I have seems different when I carried it out. I couldn't categorise the feelings, but somehow, it feels like a day I've experienced before. But I just couldn't pin it down. It felt like a day before you go on a holiday. It felt also like a day before my exams start. And lastly, it felt like it was the first day of the holidays!

haha. but things feel normal now. I was just watching project runway 4 with my sis, and we watched the episode where the designers had to create a piece of work using materials from the Hershey's store in New York. the store was awesome! haha, chocolates galore.

anyway, back to work!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

the weeks fly by

It's been a while since I last typed a post. And it feels funny to come back here. This week has been quite uneventful, the only striking thing is that it's a three-day week for me!haha. this shows how sad our lives are, topics of discussion never fail to go back to school matters. but oh well, at this stage of our lives, we are called to be students, and I believe there is a reason for why God placed us where we are. so yup, I'll try to try my best to be a great student for Him=)

things have been a bit mundane this week, it's the usual catch-up with friends, attending of school and all. but there is a sense of knowing and anticipating the weeks ahead to fly by?I was just thinking last night that I know for sure that the next few weeks are going to whizz by me, and really, before I know it, the exams will be here. so there's this wanting it to hurry and yet, wanting the now to just go slower.

argh. two more essays to go and many more readings. okay, I'm off to de-stress and to start on my 103 essay already.

haha, cheers people!I'll buy you all a drink when school's out!=)

Sunday, March 16, 2008

random notes from jean=)

Carol, I miss you!

haha. When I typed the post "One Way-Jesus", I was reminded of how you would sing the song and how awesome it would be just hearing you sing it=)

haha. another one of those hard-to-forget songs would be the one you would sing when we need to go to the washroom!haha.oops. sorry, I just had to bring that up.

I hope everything's going well for you in ulu Nus and we the people at ulu-er Ntu give you all our love!haha. the people consists mainly of just me and ronnie.=)oh, and shereen and stacy too!

heh.

we'll meet up soon okay?during the soon-to-arrive holidays!then we'll arrange to pack one whole big box of things for grace's parents to bring over to Perth=)haha. Grace, we'll be flooding your hostel with things from here during June!I wanted to send you chocs but it's Australia!!so I can't. bleugh. nvm. I'm sure there are plenty of nice things to snack on there too!

okay,I'm rambling. haha. till the next post!

ohoh, just in case I don't manage to get the next post up- Yesterday, I witnessed and took part in the most amazing and messiest donut eating event=)haha. just imagine lemon and chocolate sauce spraying from donuts when chomped on and you'll get the idea;)(seriously, it was like a fountain of sauce)

sharon was right in saying that it's way cleaner eating crabs than donuts.haha

One Way-Jesus!

Jesus You are so good, Jesus You are so, so good, and I just want to thank You with every beat of my heart!

-a worship song from church=)


Believe in Him
by Max Lucado



“. . . whoever believes in him shall not perish . . .”

The phrase “believes in him” doesn’t digest well in our day of self-sufficient spiritual food. “Believe in yourself ” is the common menu selection of our day. Try harder. Work longer. Dig deeper. Self-reliance is our goal.

And tolerance is our virtue. “In him” smacks of exclusion. Don’t all paths lead to heaven? Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism, and humanism? Salvation comes in many forms, right? Christ walks upriver on this topic. Salvation is found, not in self or in them, but in him.

Some historians clump Christ with Moses, Muhammad, Confucius, and other spiritual leaders. But Jesus refuses to share the page. He declares, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but by me” (John 14:6 RSV). He could have scored more points in political correctness had he said, “I know the way,” or “I show the way.” Yet he speaks not of what he does but of who he is: I am the way.

Many recoil at such definitiveness. John 14:6 and Acts 4:12 sound primitive in this era of broadbands and broad minds. The world is shrinking, cultures are blending, borders are bending; this is the day of inclusion. All roads lead to heaven, right? But can they?

The sentence makes good talk-show fodder, but is it accurate? Can all approaches to God be correct? Every path does not lead to God.

Jesus blazed a stand-alone trail void of self-salvation. He cleared a one-of-a-kind passageway uncluttered by human effort. Christ came, not for the strong, but for the weak; not for the righteous, but for the sinner. We enter his way upon confession of our need, not completion of our deeds. He offers a unique-to-him invitation in which he works and we trust, he dies and we live, he invites and we believe.

We believe in him. “The work God wants you to do is this: Believe the One he sent” (John 6:29 NCV). This union is publicly dramatized in baptism, for to be baptized, as Paul wrote, is to be baptized into Christ. (Gal. 3:27)

Believe in yourself? No. Believe in him.

Believe in them? No. Believe in him.

And those who do, those who believe “in him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16).


From 3:16, The Numbers of Hope
Copyright (W Publishing Group, 2007) Max Lucado

Amen!Thank You Jesus for this passage and for giving us the life You came to give=)

P.S.-You answered Lord!now all we have to do is wait. Wait for Your Holy Spirit to work in our hearts=)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Believe and Receive~

hey sharon, remember how we talked about salvation and I tried to explain why salvation couldn't and shouldn't be earned, but I didn't really explain it properly? God answered!I was reading this online when it struck me that I should post it here. haha. no pressure, I just hope you'll read it through and have a better understanding of what I wanted to say the other time=) I hope your 103 presentation went superbly!

here it is:

Believe and Receive
by Max Lucado


“. . . whoever believes in Him shall not perish . . .”

Can I really trust that “whoever believes in Him shall not perish”?

Jesus’s invitation seems too simple. We gravitate to other verbs. Work has a better ring to it. “Whoever works for him will be saved.” Satisfy fits nicely. “Whoever satisfies him will be saved.” But believe? Shouldn’t I do more?

The simplicity troubles many people.

We expect a more proactive assignment, to have to conjure up a remedy for our sin.

Some mercy seekers have donned hair shirts, climbed cathedral steps on their knees, or traversed hot rocks on bare feet.

Others of us have written our own Bible verse: “God helps those who help themselves” (Popular Opinion 1:1). We’ll fix ourselves, thank you. We’ll make up for our mistakes with contributions, our guilt with busyness. We’ll overcome failures with hard work. We’ll find salvation the old-fashioned way: we’ll earn it.

Christ, in contrast, says to us: “Your part is to trust. Trust me to do what you can’t.”

By the way, you take similar steps of trust daily, even hourly. You believe the chair will support you, so you set your weight on it. You believe water will hydrate you, so you swallow it. You trust the work of the light switch, so you flip it. You have faith the doorknob will work, so you turn it.

You regularly trust power you cannot see to do a work you cannot accomplish. Jesus invites you to do the same with him.

Just him. Not Moses or any other leader. Not even you. You can’t fix you. Look to Jesus . . .

and believe.


John 3:16- For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Thank You Jesus!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Blast from the past.

When in storms of doubt, Jesus is closer than you've ever dreamed.

- Max Lucado, In the eye of the storm.

Today felt like the one real day of university life.

I took the train to boon lay, met up with sharon and yiwen in the morning as usual, we went to get breakfast at canteen a's macs as usual and we walked to the lecture hall as usual for our weekly dose of 4 hours of singaporean and victorian lit.

what felt different was the walk across the wet pathway linking two south spine's blocks. what felt different was the going up to ask questions.

then we had the lectures, and that felt the same. like per normal.

then the feelings changed again. as we were walking towards canteen b for lunch, we met my favourite person as termed by yiwen. that felt really weird. I looked up thinking it was someone else, and smiled as he smiled. A brief glance and smile and we walked right past each other.

we had lunch. that was normal too.

what happened after lunch is actually the crux of this post. after sharon and yiwen left me to go for their class, I walked alone to the bench area, hoping to do some reading before going for class alone later. I remember praying as I walked to the benches, "Lord, would You bless me with an empty table, I just need an empty table..and Lord, don't let me feel alone?". A little hesitancy at the end, but I continued to trust in Him.

And as I walked into the bench area, I saw not one, but four empty tables. I smiled and thanked Him as I set down and with my M&Ms and Starbucks tumbler, I started reading. It was really a great time of reading. Then just as I was about to end the chapter, this guy just came up to me and asked if I had time to do a survey. I debated for a short while before agreeing.

haha. it turned out to be a 20 mins survey. and it was a survey about relationships of all things. questions that were asked included what are my expectations of my ideal partner, whether I can handle my social life, family and studies together, what's my ideal marriage age, and tons of other questions of how I would want to meet my special partner and who would influence my decision on choosing the one.

it was pretty funny actually. I think I appeared like a pessimist. I was like "nope,not interested in any bonding activities..nope, not looking for anyone now.."haha. and when he asked the question whether I was interested in anyone, I went from "not really.." slowly to a "no". Yup. No one. haha. except You Jesus! haha. I'm such a stalker=)

anyway, the survey ended and guess what? we just sat there, I asked him if he has managed to find anyone else for his surveys, he said a few, we talked a little and we kinda brainstormed on who else he can ask for the survey next. haha. then we said our byes and I left to go for class.

the expected lonely walk turned out to be filled with people. I smiled at a girl in the lift, met jade and faiezah outside the classroom, ended up going to tina's class cause prof. wagner was sick, and had an interesting time going over the tutorial qns with them.

class ended, jade was so sweet to wait for me to pop by the washroom, we walked down to the bus-stop together and talked about childhood dreams and people we know. the funny thing was when we reached the lift to take down the school block( I thought we were going to take the lift), jade opened the door to the stairs, so I was like, "alright,let's get some exercise"..we were talking and the moment we reached the second-last level, the door opening to the stairs opened and I just had this weird feeling that it is the person we met on the way to can b for lunch. and guess what? haha. it really turned out to be prof. quigley. I had this quizzical look on my face, hovering between a smile and a laugh, I ended up giving this stiff smile and an awkward "hello". I'm not sure if he remembers, but two times in a row?haha. I just had to wonder.

and then jade left to go back to her hall. and I was left standing at the bus stop for a bus. I was just talking to Him, thinking about things, thanking Him for all that He has done for me throughout this week, and I was just about to pray for a bus to come when two 179 buses came. haha. I took the second one which was very much less crowded.

and as I reached the mrt station, I debated again whether to turn left or right. I thought I just wanted a seat in the train and to be able to read my book.

I took the left turn and met chingyi. haha. and we met stacy in the train afterwards. we ended up talking about many things, laughed over the movie darjeeling limited(I am so getting the dvd!), and just had a really good time catching up with one another. I think it was my first time really talking to stacy, and it felt really nice=)

so all in all, as I walked back home, as now I recollect how the day has been spent, I can't help but smile and thank Him once again for a most blessed day of uni. life. Not everything I expect, some were exactly what I envisioned, but definitely most exceeded my expectations.

Lord, I've really enjoyed my week so far. Lord, let me continue to enjoy unceasing communion with You, let me continue to be close to You, to see the things that You see, to have Your compassion and love for the people around me. and Lord? Thank You so so much for all the blessings You have for all of us in Christ. Love you Lord!

Monday, March 3, 2008

Faith~

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

- Hebrews 11:1


Lord, I think You're telling me to pick up my mat and to walk.

Throughout the day today, You've been telling me through the various ways about it. The sermon today, the magnet on sammie's fridge, grace's blogpost..I think I get the message.

For a while now, I've been stuck in the situation where I keep praying that I'll draw closer to You, experience You, work with You and all..but I've not given You my best. I've not been seeking You with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. I've not been seeking You diligently.

Lord, just like how You have given the people in the bible the many chances for them to act out their faith, like how You could have healed the blind beggar right there on the spot, but You didn't. You gave him the chance to walk by faith to the pool at Siloam and be healed there. And how among all the people on the streets, it was the woman with the blood issue, the only one who reached out to touch your cloak that received the healing without needing to ask.

Faith is never silent.

Faith is knowing what is true, and also what you do.

Faith that does nothing is worth nothing. James 2:20.

Lord, I will try. I will daily lift my hands to praise you, I will daily enter your gates with thanksgiving and Your courts with praise, I will daily spend time with You and Your word, I will try my best to love the people You have placed in my life.

Lord, I know I cannot do this alone, and I know I have many weaknesses, but You have shown me that my weaknesses can and will be stripped away by the power of Your love. God, let me act in faith. Let me step out of my boat. Lord, I know You have provided me with opportunities to step out in faith, Lord, would You let me see these chances and to take them and to trust in You.

You are good Lord, forever and for always.

Let me dance on this mountaintop, let me dance with joy to see Your Kingdom come Lord.