I have decided to include snippets of my writing in this online journal of mine. haha, my thoughts and my words=)
information used may be inaccurate as it is twisted to fit my purposes, but hey, it is fiction afterall!
yay. this is something i've always wanted to do. meanwhile, i have to see how i can spruce up this journal of mine.
haha.
thank You Lord!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Remembering-
You're in my arms and all the world is gone, the music playing on for only two..so close together, and when I'm with you, so close to feeling alive. So close of waiting here with you, and now forever I'll know all that I wanted, to hold you so close. So close to reaching the happy end..so close, yet still so far.
It was the last waltz of the night. That was where she got to know him, there in his arms, she had her first conversation with him. It was the night of celebration, a masquerade ball was held in honour of the recent batch of graduates of the Royal Canadian Mounted Police.It was the night of celebration, for the cadets' who made it through their three years of training, and it was a night to usher them into the real world. The world where the skills they have learned in the training academy will be put to the test. Out of the 35 cadets who graduated, 7 will opt out to be posted to less strenuous departments which involve more paperwork, less operational cases. 8 will suffer burn-out cases within the first six months. And only 12 of the remaining 20 cadets will join the elite team of the police squad.
The facts were clear, and the higher-ups were waiting to see who will be the twelve this year.
She knew all these as she danced with him. And so did he. Neither of them knew each other when she accepted his invitation for the last dance of that night. And neither of them bothered to ask for the other's name, knowing that there is always the possibility that they might not see each other again. So why bother? Why not just let it remain a cherished memory?Just a night spent in each other's arms. For now, that was enough.
As he led her on the ballroom floor, turning her, their steps syncronised and as they fell into an easy dance pattern, as she looked into his eyes, she wondered,"Will I recognise these eyes should I see them again? Or will I just brush them off as just another one of those moments?"She wondered if she should memorise those eyes, that someday she will recognise them. She wanted to know who was her dance partner under his mask, she wanted to know what he looked like, she wanted to know if his grey eyes stay that stormy and distant at all times.She wanted to know him.
Drawing her close to him, he smiled an easy smile and answered her,"It's better if it stays this way."
That was the first time she met him.
It was the last waltz of the night. That was where she got to know him, there in his arms, she had her first conversation with him. It was the night of celebration, a masquerade ball was held in honour of the recent batch of graduates of the Royal Canadian Mounted Police.It was the night of celebration, for the cadets' who made it through their three years of training, and it was a night to usher them into the real world. The world where the skills they have learned in the training academy will be put to the test. Out of the 35 cadets who graduated, 7 will opt out to be posted to less strenuous departments which involve more paperwork, less operational cases. 8 will suffer burn-out cases within the first six months. And only 12 of the remaining 20 cadets will join the elite team of the police squad.
The facts were clear, and the higher-ups were waiting to see who will be the twelve this year.
She knew all these as she danced with him. And so did he. Neither of them knew each other when she accepted his invitation for the last dance of that night. And neither of them bothered to ask for the other's name, knowing that there is always the possibility that they might not see each other again. So why bother? Why not just let it remain a cherished memory?Just a night spent in each other's arms. For now, that was enough.
As he led her on the ballroom floor, turning her, their steps syncronised and as they fell into an easy dance pattern, as she looked into his eyes, she wondered,"Will I recognise these eyes should I see them again? Or will I just brush them off as just another one of those moments?"She wondered if she should memorise those eyes, that someday she will recognise them. She wanted to know who was her dance partner under his mask, she wanted to know what he looked like, she wanted to know if his grey eyes stay that stormy and distant at all times.She wanted to know him.
Drawing her close to him, he smiled an easy smile and answered her,"It's better if it stays this way."
That was the first time she met him.
thanksgiving
When you pray for patience and to be closer to your family, it isn't just about receiving fuzzy warm feelings, it's about receiving opportunities to make them real.
- Evan Almighty(movie)
thank you lord. You have blessed me with so much more than i can ever imagine. i know at most times, i'm selfish, self-indulgent, emotional and non-sensical..my list of weakness goes on. but yet lord, You told me once and i still remember it till now, that there is nothing i can do to make you love me more, and there is nothing that i have done that could make you close the door. Your love for me, and for everyone of us is truly beyond what we know, beyond what we can imagine.
how can i live without you?
Everything that I do, everything that I know, everything that is in and out of my world, I can link it back to You. and i'm glad, because i know there are a lot of things that i do not understand in this world, but one thing that i can hold on to and that i can believe in is that You know all things, and that You love us and does not and will not harm us.
I just want to be where You are, dwelling in Your mighty presence, I don't want to worship from afar, I just want to be, I just want to be with You.
so draw me close Lord, draw me close to You.
draw me close to You, never let me go..I lay it all down again, just to hear You say that I'm Your friend. So help me find again, bring me back to You..You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed. You're all I want, help me know You are near.
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. -Psalm 27:4.
- Evan Almighty(movie)
thank you lord. You have blessed me with so much more than i can ever imagine. i know at most times, i'm selfish, self-indulgent, emotional and non-sensical..my list of weakness goes on. but yet lord, You told me once and i still remember it till now, that there is nothing i can do to make you love me more, and there is nothing that i have done that could make you close the door. Your love for me, and for everyone of us is truly beyond what we know, beyond what we can imagine.
how can i live without you?
Everything that I do, everything that I know, everything that is in and out of my world, I can link it back to You. and i'm glad, because i know there are a lot of things that i do not understand in this world, but one thing that i can hold on to and that i can believe in is that You know all things, and that You love us and does not and will not harm us.
I just want to be where You are, dwelling in Your mighty presence, I don't want to worship from afar, I just want to be, I just want to be with You.
so draw me close Lord, draw me close to You.
draw me close to You, never let me go..I lay it all down again, just to hear You say that I'm Your friend. So help me find again, bring me back to You..You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed. You're all I want, help me know You are near.
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. -Psalm 27:4.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
musing
"One sometimes find what one is not looking for."
As I sat at my table with a spoon in my hand and a tub of chocolate ice-cream in my other hand, I thought of a few things. I need to cut my nails. Well, that thought was the most pressing at that moment. And after that, my thoughts got deeper, emotionally and philosphically.
Being a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic, I realised that maybe,my thoughts are just a facade, my notions idealised ones, but not necessarily the one which I will choose in the end. If you were given a choice between a life with a good husband, beautiful kids, and a house you've always dreamt about and another life with a man you love but on a road that seems to take you nowhere, which would you choose?
I would choose to be with the man I love.
Who would in turn become my husband, and we'll have the life I've always dreamt of.
Which, obviously is not one of the two options given. That is why I realised that the reason why I have such idealised notions of love is because I wanted to live in denial of the realities of life and love. The reason why I have such high expectations is because I fear looking truthfully at what life has to offer.I have such dreams precisely because in the back of my mind I think and acknowledge that they may just be what they are. Dreams.
Note the past tense. Wanted.
Not to say I won't be having my romantic notions, but I guess, I'm starting to know that life has got plenty to offer me, it just may not be what I've dreamt of. And anyway, what I dream of, may not be what I want in actual fact. Dreams may be what we think we want, but not exactly what we want. It can however, be a sort of benchmark that guides us and reminds us not to fall too short in life, and something to hold on to even if they may not turn out to be real.One can always hope. And hope is what keep us going.
And sometimes, just sometimes, one may find what one is not looking for.
Still, sometimes, love has reasons reason itself does not know.
The reason why I typed all these is because I chose option a. Which just threw all my romantic notions out of the window, and I needed to know why.
As I sat at my table with a spoon in my hand and a tub of chocolate ice-cream in my other hand, I thought of a few things. I need to cut my nails. Well, that thought was the most pressing at that moment. And after that, my thoughts got deeper, emotionally and philosphically.
Being a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic, I realised that maybe,my thoughts are just a facade, my notions idealised ones, but not necessarily the one which I will choose in the end. If you were given a choice between a life with a good husband, beautiful kids, and a house you've always dreamt about and another life with a man you love but on a road that seems to take you nowhere, which would you choose?
I would choose to be with the man I love.
Who would in turn become my husband, and we'll have the life I've always dreamt of.
Which, obviously is not one of the two options given. That is why I realised that the reason why I have such idealised notions of love is because I wanted to live in denial of the realities of life and love. The reason why I have such high expectations is because I fear looking truthfully at what life has to offer.I have such dreams precisely because in the back of my mind I think and acknowledge that they may just be what they are. Dreams.
Note the past tense. Wanted.
Not to say I won't be having my romantic notions, but I guess, I'm starting to know that life has got plenty to offer me, it just may not be what I've dreamt of. And anyway, what I dream of, may not be what I want in actual fact. Dreams may be what we think we want, but not exactly what we want. It can however, be a sort of benchmark that guides us and reminds us not to fall too short in life, and something to hold on to even if they may not turn out to be real.One can always hope. And hope is what keep us going.
And sometimes, just sometimes, one may find what one is not looking for.
Still, sometimes, love has reasons reason itself does not know.
The reason why I typed all these is because I chose option a. Which just threw all my romantic notions out of the window, and I needed to know why.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Literature.
Love's not love when it is mingled with regards that stand aloof from the entire point.
- King Lear, William Shakespeare
i've decided to type something literaturish today. i just realised, after 2 and a half years to having literature in both yj and ntu, i still revert back to using this quote from King Lear. I've probably seen and memorised many many quotes, of topics like injustice, family, state, violence and of course, love. Poem, novels, plays, sonnets, films. There is probably many more interesting and captivating quotes and passages from what we have read over the years. And frankly, i like this quote, but it ain't really the most awesome quote to me either, and yet, i quote it so often i have lost count of the many times i've said it out loud. Why, i wonder.
i guess it holds the place of simplicity in my book of quotes. haha, imaginary one of course. It remings me again and again that the moment "regards that stand aloof from the entire point" come in, that is when love, and other things like life start to seem complicated. And often, i get distracted. Confused and lost. I start to lose focus and discouragement starts to seep in.
3Fs:Frustration, Failure, Fear
cell last week reminded me of that;discouragement. And the three Rs to combat the three Fs of discouragement?
3Rs:Re-organise.Remember, Resist!
haha.it really reminded me that as humans, we tend to face discouragement quite often and we need to know that it is not a problem that we cannot solve. We just need to keep our focus clear and to keep it right and keep going.
i'm rambling now. but well, i just wanted to type. so this came out=)
i got this next section from my jie's blog:
I believe you are the answer to every tear I’ve cried
I believe that you are with me,My rising and my light.
Give me strength when I am weary
Give me hope when I can’t see
Through the crosses I must carry
Lord, bind my heart to thee
That when all my days are over and all my chores are done,
I may see your risen Glory
Forever where You are.
The Answer by Corrine May.
I almost teared up just now after reading my jie's blog. i think if my dad wasn't sitting next to me watching the news, i just might have done so.
It's just i knew exactly how my jie felt that dreadful day she had in school, and how she felt-discouraged. and to read of how she was blessed by God by the song was just very touching for me.
thank You Lord, for always being here, for hearing us when we are weak, when we are unable to do anything else other than letting our tears fall. thank You for hearing us and never failing to touch our hearts, to encourage us when we feel down and out, when we feel we don't deserve Your love. thank You Lord for showing us it's okay to cry, it's okay to weep, just as long as we know that after it all, we have hope and life in You.
love You
- King Lear, William Shakespeare
i've decided to type something literaturish today. i just realised, after 2 and a half years to having literature in both yj and ntu, i still revert back to using this quote from King Lear. I've probably seen and memorised many many quotes, of topics like injustice, family, state, violence and of course, love. Poem, novels, plays, sonnets, films. There is probably many more interesting and captivating quotes and passages from what we have read over the years. And frankly, i like this quote, but it ain't really the most awesome quote to me either, and yet, i quote it so often i have lost count of the many times i've said it out loud. Why, i wonder.
i guess it holds the place of simplicity in my book of quotes. haha, imaginary one of course. It remings me again and again that the moment "regards that stand aloof from the entire point" come in, that is when love, and other things like life start to seem complicated. And often, i get distracted. Confused and lost. I start to lose focus and discouragement starts to seep in.
3Fs:Frustration, Failure, Fear
cell last week reminded me of that;discouragement. And the three Rs to combat the three Fs of discouragement?
3Rs:Re-organise.Remember, Resist!
haha.it really reminded me that as humans, we tend to face discouragement quite often and we need to know that it is not a problem that we cannot solve. We just need to keep our focus clear and to keep it right and keep going.
i'm rambling now. but well, i just wanted to type. so this came out=)
i got this next section from my jie's blog:
I believe you are the answer to every tear I’ve cried
I believe that you are with me,My rising and my light.
Give me strength when I am weary
Give me hope when I can’t see
Through the crosses I must carry
Lord, bind my heart to thee
That when all my days are over and all my chores are done,
I may see your risen Glory
Forever where You are.
The Answer by Corrine May.
I almost teared up just now after reading my jie's blog. i think if my dad wasn't sitting next to me watching the news, i just might have done so.
It's just i knew exactly how my jie felt that dreadful day she had in school, and how she felt-discouraged. and to read of how she was blessed by God by the song was just very touching for me.
thank You Lord, for always being here, for hearing us when we are weak, when we are unable to do anything else other than letting our tears fall. thank You for hearing us and never failing to touch our hearts, to encourage us when we feel down and out, when we feel we don't deserve Your love. thank You Lord for showing us it's okay to cry, it's okay to weep, just as long as we know that after it all, we have hope and life in You.
love You
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
thank You=)
Whee~!
exams are OVERRR. haha, i just watched the trailer for the movie Enchanted and it was super duper funny!i laughed like a hyena=)
sharon! must go watch the movie SOON kay?ask grace and carol too!!or we could ask yiwen whether she wants to watch it on fri?
oh ya, just now my mum just flashed me the most awesome smile i've ever seen. seriously. i mean her face just lit up and to exaggerate a bit, she almost glowed.yup,i was beyond surprised!it was really nice though.
and sharon?thanks for the dinner and the time spent just now=)
haha.i'm using my blog as a pin-up board for notes..
I came here broken, You made me whole
You have been so good, You have been so good,
You have been so good to me.
exams are OVERRR. haha, i just watched the trailer for the movie Enchanted and it was super duper funny!i laughed like a hyena=)
sharon! must go watch the movie SOON kay?ask grace and carol too!!or we could ask yiwen whether she wants to watch it on fri?
oh ya, just now my mum just flashed me the most awesome smile i've ever seen. seriously. i mean her face just lit up and to exaggerate a bit, she almost glowed.yup,i was beyond surprised!it was really nice though.
and sharon?thanks for the dinner and the time spent just now=)
haha.i'm using my blog as a pin-up board for notes..
I came here broken, You made me whole
You have been so good, You have been so good,
You have been so good to me.
Friday, November 16, 2007
bleughh
yay..two done, two more to go!
haha, i'm actually looking forward to the tcm exam=)zhong lao shi is so nice!haha, he sent us an e-mail telling us what to study for the exam and to relax and rest well!awesome right?
anyway, today was a bit of a surprise. haha, we did have to translate the first 20 lines of the general prologue!and to think i did TWO chaucer texts. i think i did it wrongly though..we had to do it in prose? i think i just translated line by line. hmmm..okay, must submit this to God. i'm glad Lord, that i can cast my worries at your cross. though the results may not be what i want, but Lord, i want to trust in You, that You have plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a future and a hope. Jer 29:11. haha, that's shu hui's fav. verse. I claim this promise Lord!=)
thank you Jesus.
oh, and something quite embarrassing happened on the way home today. i was thinking i have to blog this even though it is quite silly. Two passer-bys asked me which is the closest jc(we were in bishan), and guess what i replied?"ermm..i think it's nyjc, but you'll have to take the bus 156 to get there." the next thing i know, they were like,"is there a raffles junior college here?" and i went..."Oh..yeah!actually, ahem ahem, it's just down the road."
my goodness. what was i thinking? maybe rjc isn't really that prominent afterall. haha.
okay, have to go mug over 104 soon. i hope you're feeling better sharon!=)
The Searchers. DPT. Heart of Darkness.
i want ice-cream.
haha, i'm actually looking forward to the tcm exam=)zhong lao shi is so nice!haha, he sent us an e-mail telling us what to study for the exam and to relax and rest well!awesome right?
anyway, today was a bit of a surprise. haha, we did have to translate the first 20 lines of the general prologue!and to think i did TWO chaucer texts. i think i did it wrongly though..we had to do it in prose? i think i just translated line by line. hmmm..okay, must submit this to God. i'm glad Lord, that i can cast my worries at your cross. though the results may not be what i want, but Lord, i want to trust in You, that You have plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a future and a hope. Jer 29:11. haha, that's shu hui's fav. verse. I claim this promise Lord!=)
thank you Jesus.
oh, and something quite embarrassing happened on the way home today. i was thinking i have to blog this even though it is quite silly. Two passer-bys asked me which is the closest jc(we were in bishan), and guess what i replied?"ermm..i think it's nyjc, but you'll have to take the bus 156 to get there." the next thing i know, they were like,"is there a raffles junior college here?" and i went..."Oh..yeah!actually, ahem ahem, it's just down the road."
my goodness. what was i thinking? maybe rjc isn't really that prominent afterall. haha.
okay, have to go mug over 104 soon. i hope you're feeling better sharon!=)
The Searchers. DPT. Heart of Darkness.
i want ice-cream.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
noooooo
goodness.
i'm turning into an air-head.
just ten mins ago i couldn't remember what the storeroom was called! i kept thinking staff room, staff room..
geez.literature is turning my head into mush. must be all the talking about masks, identity, the search for the essential..the green light..and now, wife of bath.
mush it is then. at least it will be intelligent, cultured and interesting mush.=)
joy to you and me.
i'm turning into an air-head.
just ten mins ago i couldn't remember what the storeroom was called! i kept thinking staff room, staff room..
geez.literature is turning my head into mush. must be all the talking about masks, identity, the search for the essential..the green light..and now, wife of bath.
mush it is then. at least it will be intelligent, cultured and interesting mush.=)
joy to you and me.
finding and keeping
i think i am addicted to peanut butter and butter toast.
no, i mean seriously.
anymore, more important and interesting things await-Exams start tomorrow!haha
have to go off soon to study the great gatsby and the wife of bath.=) i've decided i didn't have enough time and brain space for paradise lost..
nothing much happened recently, hence the lack of want or need to post.
ughh.
got it!
haha, i was thinking of what to write.
i was reading a story by this author, and she revealed that she's "notorious for starting things and not finishing them" but she realised that "all you need to do is to find the right story and to keep at it."
wow. i guess i'm like that really. i start on a lot of things, have ideas and all, but they always end up incomplete. well, here's to me finding my right story!
in a way, this really does apply to writing, to life and also to love.
Find the right story and keep at it.
no, i mean seriously.
anymore, more important and interesting things await-Exams start tomorrow!haha
have to go off soon to study the great gatsby and the wife of bath.=) i've decided i didn't have enough time and brain space for paradise lost..
nothing much happened recently, hence the lack of want or need to post.
ughh.
got it!
haha, i was thinking of what to write.
i was reading a story by this author, and she revealed that she's "notorious for starting things and not finishing them" but she realised that "all you need to do is to find the right story and to keep at it."
wow. i guess i'm like that really. i start on a lot of things, have ideas and all, but they always end up incomplete. well, here's to me finding my right story!
in a way, this really does apply to writing, to life and also to love.
Find the right story and keep at it.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
love actually-both sides now
Both Sides, Now
by Joni Mitchell
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I was browsing through my selection on songs on youtube when i chanced upon this song. The song was featured in a really emotional scene in the movie Love Actually.Karen just found out that her husband cheated on her, and she was just playing this song and trying to blot out her tears. Truly a remarkable performance..i remember she asked Harry near the end of the movie,"If you were me, would you stay knowing that life will always be a little worse, or would you cut and run?". Famous line, but i think the real note-worthy one came right before that. Harry admitted that he was a fool. Karen replied, "You've not just made a fool of yourself, you've made a fool out of me and you've made my life foolish".
haha. a bit too melancholic yeah?
it's a really nice song though. go download it=)
oh, and sharon and i met grace today!!She got me this really nice floral-printed tumbler from Starbucks, which i absolutely fell in love with.haha, i mean like very very much=)and she did a really awesome drawing on the note!haha
a good day really. Looking forward to spending time with God and His people tomorrow!
thank you Lord for the anointing today. though it smelled of ginger, but to me it's sweet-smelling all the same.
by Joni Mitchell
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I was browsing through my selection on songs on youtube when i chanced upon this song. The song was featured in a really emotional scene in the movie Love Actually.Karen just found out that her husband cheated on her, and she was just playing this song and trying to blot out her tears. Truly a remarkable performance..i remember she asked Harry near the end of the movie,"If you were me, would you stay knowing that life will always be a little worse, or would you cut and run?". Famous line, but i think the real note-worthy one came right before that. Harry admitted that he was a fool. Karen replied, "You've not just made a fool of yourself, you've made a fool out of me and you've made my life foolish".
haha. a bit too melancholic yeah?
it's a really nice song though. go download it=)
oh, and sharon and i met grace today!!She got me this really nice floral-printed tumbler from Starbucks, which i absolutely fell in love with.haha, i mean like very very much=)and she did a really awesome drawing on the note!haha
a good day really. Looking forward to spending time with God and His people tomorrow!
thank you Lord for the anointing today. though it smelled of ginger, but to me it's sweet-smelling all the same.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
hope
thank you Lord.
today has been quite a day. I was really looking forward to today as it's Professor Quigley day!haha, not exactly. But we do get to attend his lecture and tutorial=)
Lecture was interesting as usual, though it made me realise that i need to seriously brush up on my reading and understanding of my lecture notes and texts. oh, and we got our assignments back today.
B-. Well, i can't say i didn't feel disappointed at all, as it would be a lie. But what i am really thankful for is the encouragement that my lord gave me. As i was in the train stoning away, i thought about a prayer i made before receiving back my assignment. I told Jesus that i want to praise him, regardless of my grade. I put in my effort, and i left the rest to him.
and after receiving back my work, i found it quite hard to keep me promise. yet, i asked Jesus to help me find the joy to praise him still and to continue to hope in Him.
as i was stoning in the train while standing, we passed by a church that had a banner proclaiming this,"You O Lord are good, and Your love endures forever. Your faithfulness endures through all generations." I can't remember the exact verse, but it got me thinking. I remember being upset over past econs tests and assignments when i failed them horribly and just couldn't get them right. I thought of how He was always there to listen to me and to send people to me to encourage me and to help me. I thought of how He re-assured me and gave me his peace and joy. I thought of how he gave me back my hope and trust in him. I thought of how he blessed me with more than i could ever have imagined.I thought of Jesus and his faithfulness and i smiled.
I knew my hope and trust in him remains there and then, and even now, i'm still glad and i'm still hoping.
Jesus, You are indeed special beyond reason alone.
today has been quite a day. I was really looking forward to today as it's Professor Quigley day!haha, not exactly. But we do get to attend his lecture and tutorial=)
Lecture was interesting as usual, though it made me realise that i need to seriously brush up on my reading and understanding of my lecture notes and texts. oh, and we got our assignments back today.
B-. Well, i can't say i didn't feel disappointed at all, as it would be a lie. But what i am really thankful for is the encouragement that my lord gave me. As i was in the train stoning away, i thought about a prayer i made before receiving back my assignment. I told Jesus that i want to praise him, regardless of my grade. I put in my effort, and i left the rest to him.
and after receiving back my work, i found it quite hard to keep me promise. yet, i asked Jesus to help me find the joy to praise him still and to continue to hope in Him.
as i was stoning in the train while standing, we passed by a church that had a banner proclaiming this,"You O Lord are good, and Your love endures forever. Your faithfulness endures through all generations." I can't remember the exact verse, but it got me thinking. I remember being upset over past econs tests and assignments when i failed them horribly and just couldn't get them right. I thought of how He was always there to listen to me and to send people to me to encourage me and to help me. I thought of how He re-assured me and gave me his peace and joy. I thought of how he gave me back my hope and trust in him. I thought of how he blessed me with more than i could ever have imagined.I thought of Jesus and his faithfulness and i smiled.
I knew my hope and trust in him remains there and then, and even now, i'm still glad and i'm still hoping.
Jesus, You are indeed special beyond reason alone.
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